Now And Forever

2010-07-18T03:52:00.000-07:00

its been a very very long time since i last blogged ,
seriously alot had happened in this period of times .
some good , some bad . some i dunno how to say oso . lol

@WORK new workplace , old faces . wondering wat i mean ?
simply cos i m working wif my bros , pros & cons .
started off with the company called Readycarsasia ,
den came the BIG change BEN & CHARWIN ,
is heading ME , JASON , MATTHEW , DERRICK & SPENCER
in our very own company QCARS rental n management !!!!
Pros are more like frens n frens working tgt is fun n easy .
Cons are alot of quarrels n disagreement etc etc .....
but over all everything is fine n doin well .

@PLAY same old game i've been playing for quite sometime already
CABALSEA , kinda boring still a nice game to play .

@BIKE wanna rebuild my PASHLEY

@MONEY BROKE !!!!!! lol

@MIND wanna see the company grow , earn more money , get a new desktop

@LOVE this is the something i dunno wheather its good or bad ,
like i said ALL IN GOOD TIME !!!!!

HEILUVBAI4

2009-09-19T08:14:00.001-07:00

The past week wasn't realli a good one ...... Sigh ......
i became like two differ person , which i , myself find it scary .....
serious , no joke , i m scare of myself ,
scare coz i dunno wat i will do or say ......
like heck care wats gonna happened or will happened .

i became beri cold towards alot of ppl n things ,
i oso cant come up wif an ans to it .......

i stop here first dunno wat to blog ..... sigh

2009-09-06T02:09:00.000-07:00

我怎么还在记忆里徘徊
一个我最爱的人已不在
从没想到你竟然狠心这样
看着最爱你的人选择离

开手机号码还在
随时都开
为了你不能改
总在期盼
哪天你真的会打来

爱在我心里
面像个小孩要呵护依赖
没有人可以一口气说个明白

等待你接受我的爱
等待我给你的未来
让我这样抱紧着你
不放开我要你接受
我的爱相信是上天的安排
让我可以手牵着你
永远不要分开

开手机号码还在
随时都开
为了你不能改
总在期盼
哪天你真的会打来

爱在我心里
面像个小孩要呵护依赖
没有人可以一口气说个明白

等待你接受我的爱
等待我给你的未来
让我这样抱紧着你
不放开我要你接受
我的爱相信是上天的安排
让我可以手牵着你
永远不要分开

等待你接受我的爱
等待我给你的未来
让我这样抱紧着你
不放开我要你接受
我的爱相信是上天的安排
让我可以手牵着你
永远不要分开

Anu thanks for the intro for the vidz

this ass will soon be flying back to thailand for awhile ,
too much things had happened recently oso dunno where to start from
juz feel like sighing onli .

First is work , losing the heart for the work , will be leaving for sure .
but still need to find someone to take over me ....... juz thinking of it ,
gives me a headache .

den there is Wei Xiong , still on a long road of recovery , Get well soon

Den my Xiao Mei havin problem of her own , wasn't too much of a help to her oso , jiayou

den there is Gina , oso having loads of problems too herself , be strong ok ?

and a big blow to me , i dun wanna tok about it oso
lead me thinking of how short n weak lifes can be .......
starting to hav a greater understanding or things ard me ,
gonna work harder to make a point ,
kinda stop my hobby n passion of riding , due to some reasons .
time is running realli short on me now

n as for HER , there so much i wanna say n so much i wanna complain ,
and yet i m still protecting her , i m be an idiot or something .....
loads of ppl told izit worth it ? yet i , myself dun have an ans .

"I wanna start anew" , will this be a false hope ? i dunno
sigh , juz wanna work hard n save up ..........

i m gonna redo my house , anyone got any ideas to share .......
hopefully redo my house , making it feel more like a home
wif a fresh look , comes a fresh start , comes a better me ......

ELF4

Its a "WE" , Not a "YOU" or a "ME"

Phase of the day : Be thankful of wat u have , n not complain wat u dun have .

2009-09-04T01:58:00.000-07:00

那一扇车门

关出我们的裂痕

一声就震断了回头的路程

爱无法均分

以后就留给你们

也许用伤害结束爱才更动人

* 容忍的人其实并不笨

只是宁可对自己残忍

既然爱不能恒温

祝福就给你下一个人

** 你是好人也是个坏人

对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔

不能放任所以放了

这点痛我还能忍

我是好人也是个坏人

分得够狠你才有借口转身

宁愿爱一点不剩

也不忍看恋人爱成路人

Repeat *,**

三个人从不对等

总有个人必须牺牲

那永恒就等他带你完成

Repeat **

宁愿爱一点不剩

也不忍看恋人爱成路人

Shimei thanks for intro-ing this song to me

2009-08-15T20:03:00.000-07:00

OUR STORY

STARTED ON 29th Nov 2007 ,

ENDED ON 16th Aug 2009 3.42 am

THANKS FOR THE 632 days .......

2009-07-26T00:08:00.001-07:00

Hey u all gotta check this out , its pure madness n with an "OUCH"

this is the OUCH

http://www.pinkbike.com/video/31477/
this is the madness
http://www.pinkbike.com/video/87550/

2009-07-20T20:11:00.000-07:00

beri sian at work , add 2 new songs to my playlist ,
dun wanna see wat i blog , but please enjoy the 2 new songs

3rd on the playlist is a chinese song

-Zeng pei ci (Pets) Lei le - OST from a chinese drama "Zhong Ji San Guo"

storyline is based on the 3 kingdoms , for those who wanna noe about the
3 kingdom in a funny n easy way , watch it on youtube.

4th on the playlist is a korean song

-WonderGirls This Time

this is one of many many i like from them .

hope u all like the songs .....
will try to update more

601days ^^

HEILUVBAI4

2009-07-19T22:02:00.000-07:00

Rot Liao La My Blog !!!!!!!!!!!!! LOLX

sorry la realli lazy to blog oso , nothing happy to blog anot oso
mostly all hurting n sad things , blog out let ppl laugh onli .
so wat for blog rite , no one will understand so i oso dun bother lo

okok enough of the crappy shit , n all the bloody hu ha ..........

life goes on for me , my big wok on my back , WEE U WEE
i can finally put it down liao , dun ask me wat is it ,
its a grave mistake i made due to stupidity ..... hope i got that word rite ....

normally i would break out my blogging into a few parts ,
its time for a change ( okok i m lazy , u happy now ? )
i will juz phase it in general terms n form ......

Recently not feeling well , dunno y oso , maybe the weather , food i eat , thing i do
, time i sleep , etc etc , things juz dun feel rite , sold off my Trials Bike liao ,
cant believe it myself i would sell it off , kinda hurts , but bo bian , not riding alot liao .
i miss my bed , i dun wanna go back home to sleep , always makes me think alot
while facing the 4 walls , questioning myself over n over , again n again ,
over wat u might ask , thing i dunno n i dying to get ans from , but no reply .
sux thumb lo , lan lan cant do anything ......

some new guy came to my shop to work , no power over him , manpower down to like onli 2 person , me n my ah mei - Serine , working our ass off man !!!!!!
police comin up like once every 2-3 days , SOT .........
got a few new online games , but dunno y i cant seems to find the heart to stay wif the games .
juz dun have the mood like last time .

Wanna quit the job i m having now , but its seems like i dunno where to from here ,
alot of ppl , brothers , n frens all given me alot of ideas ,
but i dunno wats wrong , maybe the problem lies within me , myself .

Y everyone look at money so hard , i realli dunno y ,
simple is happiness , somehow there's alot of ppl not understanding tt .
everything comes wif a price tag , please bear in mind .....

600 Days ................ thinking of the 1st day .......
1year 7 months 3weeks 1day ?hours ?minutes ?seconds
HEILUVBAI4

2009-05-13T03:17:00.000-07:00

Sian , i think i m sick ...... oh bother this sux lo , lmao .....
haven blog fort he past few days .... too busy or juz plain lazy ba
i dunno n i dun care ....... hehe .........
i feel like there's nothing much for me to be bothered about liao
juz went into a beri cold n bored stage in life ......
hope its juz for awhile not for long .......
i sacre it will stay like this for good ........
haiz enough of that ......

Tml need to attend a meeting held by ASIASOFT for some event this june
hope it will help my sales at bedok go up .......
but the boss juz keep ask for things that out of my means n control .
y cant he juz understand that ......... realli cant believe
working ofr him like coming 3 years ......
the kind of remarks he made on me ......
realli pisses me off ....... realli felt i realli doing my best liao.....
but he juz dun take it into heart .......

The boys are getting together more often recently .....
all having the kick to ride again ...... yeah ......
i realli missed those days ......

love life still in a big mess ......... thats all i can say .......
juz waiting for something to happened .......
hopefully is for the better .... dun realli wanna ask much .....

534 days n still hanging on ......

HEILUVBAI4

2009-05-04T20:23:00.000-07:00

looks like noone has yet to read my question out of randomness ......
nvm its always there , dun shy come come ...... lol

i m starting to learn that i can live without meeting someone for days
n not get mad over it , realli something i set my mind to .....
so when someone tells u "if u set ur mind to , nothing is impossible "
its realli works somehow .......

last nite came down to shop wanted to complete the tasks i had
but ended up having a heart to heart chat wif an old fren of mine ,
he need not be named , n i think he dun wan to be named to .....
for the reason i noe , repsect wat he wan , so please dun ask me
who he is ....... we toked from 1 plus until near 7 am in the morning .....
life , goals , dreams , love , regrets , etc etc .......
found out alot things , tts hidden from me , hurt to hear it .....
i m juz too dead tired to say much .....

Sorry for a not so interesting entry today ......

525days ....... sleepy ah !!!!!!!!!!!!!

HEILUVBAI4

2009-05-03T22:56:00.000-07:00

Random topic : When was the last time u cried ? And why ?

feel free to reply on my taggy on the left , share wif me , us ....

sorry for the sudden randomness ...... juz happened to pop into my head ....
well well well , for wat i can say it wasn,t a good start this morning ,
late for work as usual , realli need to do something about it .....
if anyone out there got any good idea , juz shoot , i m too big in size to miss ....
to make things worst everything was in a mess , have to clean up ....
boss called n make noise , but wat to do his my boss , sux thumb lo
cleaned up lo , move things here n there , stock my products ....
goin to the bank in awhile ..... he said he will comin down ....
but i hope he wont dun wanna see him ......
my coms not done up yet ...... haiz ..... must chiong chiong ~~~~~~~~~~~
enough of work ......

pay day coming .... but not much due something ...... dun wanna tok about it
go MERDANDY chillllllll ~~~~~~~ BEN's away so no meet ups ,
sleep sleep sleep ...... can i make it a hobby ..... lol kidding la .....
work work work ......... been getting more sleep recently .....
feels so shiok ...............

today i gonna be free after work ....... anyone got any plan , spare a slot for me ....
i'm bored ...... lol if dun have i go home be a pig ........
feel like riding , haven jump or ride hard recently ......
my body feels funny funny de ...... the other saw some trial rider opps my shop ....
feel like goin over , but i didnt ...... need to take care of my knee .......
i realli wanna get it done ........ who wanna chip in for my operation ......
ard 6,000 dollar ...... if i remember correctly .....
haiz ...... for those ppl out there , please take care of urself ,
dun worry ur love ones ...... treasure them .....

RESPECT :
a key word in life , y ? , u might wanna ask ......
to gain one's respect , u need to learn how to respect the other person .
y respect , if ppl respect u like the way u respect ppl ,
watever u say , its will always be taken into consideration ...
which is a good thing .... knowing where u stand help u alot in terms like
friendship , partnership , relationship , family , work .....
its a thing that work in a circle like how the world/earth turns .....
i m learning too , its nv too late to learn ....
SO WAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR ......
dun juz say it , show it , do it .......
go rite home after work , school , tell ur parents u love them
thanks them for all they had done ......
coz the are ones thats we should realli give our respects to ....

524 days ..... i wonder ........

HEILUVBAI4

2009-05-02T20:35:00.000-07:00

DAMN !!!! wasnt a good start for today .....
but had a realli good slp last nite , but i woke up at 5 plus ...
i was like super wide awake lo , den i watch tv ......
yes tv u might be thinking so early got show meh ???
strangly there was ..... okok back to the topic ....
den went back to bed , enjoying my music .....
den who noes i fell asleep again .....
coz the rain was juz too nice to sleep ......
n here's the not so good start of the day .....
LATE FOR WORK !!!!!!
my boss even had to call me to wake up ......
n thank god he nv scold or shout at me , so that wasnt all that bad .....
den made my way down to shop ..... my boy Firdaus entered
some singing thinging , wish he all the best ......

yesterday for the first time since so long i realli had a good rest ,
no dreams no nightmare , juz good rest .........
kinda told her i dun wanna tok over the phone , coz i wan to hav a day
wifout quarrels , n guess wat , its WORKED !!!!!
yeah yeah *clap clap* i noe its dun sound realli nice .....
but sometimes everyone need a break from their busy daily lifes
stop n have a good rest so u can walk further n better ......
but here's another problem i think i kana FOOD POISONING
from the chicken rice i ate last nite ...... sian lousy day for me lol .....

thats y resting well is always a good thing ..... if anyone viewing my blog n
happens to work in a japanese company should noe y rest is good .....
coz japanese company let their staff n worker nap during work
for like an half hour to work better .... which they called it "POWER NAP"
like damn cool rite .... lol

i think i will try to blog more rather den i having noone to tok
about my problems , worries , wishes , dreams , plans .......
(For listening ears out there please call this HOTLINE 933-PIGGY to listen to me NAG !!! )
lol...... juz kidding la .......

Today is the last day of the week , tml is another lazy lazy monday .....
enjoy all ur evenings today ...... (")(^00^) bye bye

523 days n moving on

HEILUVBAI4

2009-04-30T20:05:00.000-07:00

Yes i m back (Finally rite ? blog rotten liao lol)
recent turns of event was most to blog about .....
wheather its me , myself n my love , my family , my work , etc etc .....
u all noe the usual things tt happens in life .........
sometimes nice sometimes not ......

In the Family , couples had faced their worst ....
but realli glad it all turn out well at the end ......
more gatheing ever since the eldest brother is back in SG
wat kind of gathering u might ask ..... hmmmm ..... well
the not so healthy type lo but nothing sexual , dun get me wrong .....
juz alot of last nite outing , super crazy drinking sessions , super high nites
@ MERDANDY !!!!!!! but most of all its a loving n warm gathering .....

At work , my Over all in-change Mr Lee had left the company n
left alot of used tips in life n at work in the 2 short years ....
i thank u for all ur help n things u had teach me .....
now i ve taken his post in the company , but in many terms n ways
i dun like to stay in the company , but due to a number of issues ,
i need to stay on ......... wish me luck ......

ME & MYSELF ...........................................................................
like the dots theres so many so many things i ve bottled up recently .....
thanks to TAVERN & BEN , i got to let out my inner self ......
thanks alot guyz .....money is always an issue , so nothing to say about it ....
which is an issue to almost everyone i believe ..... lost abit of weight i think ,
cos my clothes r all getting kinda loose ...... drinking alot recently ,
getting the kick outta it ..... had alot of bad n sad moments in life n love .....
yet still trying real hard to face it n make a stand ......
but strong in the heart weak at making it a fact , lack some kind of support ....
but still had to live wif it ...... BELIEVE ME I M TRYING REALLI REALLI HARD ....
something super random , i hearing super nai ting de singing in my shop
n its killing me .......... argh !!!!!!!!! help !!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL
ok ok where was i ???? oh , oh ya ... love , love , love ...... aiyo
had quite alot of problem recently , juz hope think will tun out well .....
realli , i realli wan it to turn out well .......

well i gues tts all for now .... so folk stay tune for more ....... lol

520 days n stay goin .............

HEILUVBAI4

2009-02-09T20:52:00.000-08:00

Yes yes i noe i noe , i been donkey months since i long blogged ,

like i said in a few post back , plain laziness .

alot of things happened in the last few months , load of ups n downs

oso dunno wat to say/blog about , juz happened to be sitting in the counter

thinking of something random den i came in to my blog

so i think blog lo since everyone say my blog rotting liao ,

wonder if there a smell to the rotting anot , jkjk . ok FINE ! i noe its lame

Firstly we had usher in the year of the XO for 2009 ,

BEN & CINDY will coming back to singapore on the 21st of feb ,

MERRIL , YAM & CANDY , Grats on ur new CAFE @ 26 HAJI LANE

MERDANDY BAR & CAFE
26 HAJI LANE

MERDANDY@SINGAPORE.COM

62911162

guyz if u wanna arrange for a celebration , u can give them a call

promise to good place u to slack n have a drink or two . do check them out .

AH KHEE has a wonderful wife n a wonderful 3 room flat rite in the heart of

BEDOK CENTRAL .

TAVERN oso a great wife n will be getting their love nest soon

AH TECK still looking cool as ever n do well wif his gf

SHELDON still a weirdo as usual but a great friend

CHARWIN & MOMI doin well too

And the long awaited skate park @ EAST COAST is finally up

but not yet opened , but we were lucky to ride the park the whole nite

juz check out how deep the bowl is ........... @@

saying of skate park , EE SENG improved alot n when i say alot

i realli mean alot ...... we been riding with more commitment lately

which is by far a good sign ........

And as for work , OMFG !!!!! its realli taking a toll on me .

got 3 new staffs , not the best help u can get but not yet the worst .

DAMIEN , FIRDAUS & MAMAT

n for the first time in my life i did something i nv tot i would do

fire someone , but who it is i dun wanna say , since a 2nd chances was given

den there's no point bring the matter up .......

its been 440 days which is 1year, 2months, 1week & 5 days

its been awhile since a got together , alots of things had happened

some good some bad , but watever it is will still love each other .

like of tears , smiles , laughs , pain , sorrow , setbacks but i believe

we will come through it all no matter wat ........

realli wanna thanks her for being there for me , stood by me , back me up

n most of all thanks u for ur love n care , thanks .............

hope there will be mroe happier things to come in the year of the OX

440 days and counting ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

HEILUVBAI4

2008-11-03T01:40:00.000-08:00

Hey check out the anount of dust on my blog .... if u get wat i mean ...
okok enough of my rubbish ..... cant rmb when was the lst time i blogged
1 month ? 2 ? i lost counted ...... but watever , nothing special happens in my life
so first things first , my work .........

@WORK work haven been goin well but its like getting worst
by the day , AH SHENG is back at BEDOK , DEREK is super pissed.
i kinda got demoted , lost old staffs got some new ones ....
but things juz felt like there's something missing .....
FRIENDSHIP is missing ....... thats all to it .....
this job realli sux , if i hav to say ..... low pay , wide job scope ,
dumb lan system , super no life working hours .....
but lan lan still need to work or even sux up to the boss .......
like there's an old say SHIT HAPPENS !!!!!!!!
so i guess somethings r better left unsaid ......
its the best for everyone ...... leaving this place soon ....
hope sooner de i think ..... LOL

@PLAY bored , sian , bo meaning , waste of time , for fun onli ,
where got time , dun wan la , huh ???? , i wan go out ,
this r the words tts coming out of my mouth when its comes
to games , i oso dunno y ....not playing as much as i used to .....
wasn t good at them in the first places , come to think of it ,
wasted quite alot of money on it liao ..... juz so be it ba ....

@BIKE for this theres alot of happening recently , ever since i got
back riding , feeling more alife , dun ask me y , i oso dunno myself
juz feel damn good that i can still ride , even in the rain oso riding ,
we realli mad liao ... LOL got new record on my SIDE HOP ,
it should be at about a table's height , ok i noe its not beri high ,
but for me , wif a broke knee its good enough , will work harder on it ...
saying of tables , i actually broke a table under a void deck .....
okok i noe i m fat so stop laughing ..... hehe
maybe wanna get a new bike a BMX from HOFFMANBIKES
and might be selling afew bikes away ......
no space to to put my bikes liao .......

@MONEY still the same old thing , no money .... haha
ok la , still can live wif lo , been saying wanna buy TOTO
& 4D oso haven start .... haha boring lo

@MIND , clear up the mess here n FUCK THE HELL OUTTA HERE !!!!!!!!

@LOVE loads of quarrels , loads of fights , loads of disagreements
yet still loving den ever before , this is like a kind of blessing ......
11months plus liao , wasnt easy , juz think of ppl whom lasted for
12 years like ZOE TAY ....... lol or my fren BLUE EYES aka KELVIN
n his GF oso beri long liao , ENVY !!!!! >.< nvm i will slowly work to my goal

Phase of the day , tt i been saying for a long time
Watever u do , dun be sorry for urself .....

341days of fun , love , care , joy n more to come ...

HEILUVBAI4

2008-09-28T23:39:00.000-07:00

nothing to update oso , juz simply bored
trying to change a lifestyle for now

my piggy poor thing , fell sick until beri bad
den cant realli do anything for her ,
felt kinda bad ...... haiz
had to keep her away from alot of thing
that realli like/love to eat ......
but she is slowly but surely getting better at the moment .

changed the blog song (as if no one will notice) ,
Shun Zi is the singer ,
she's a wonderful n powerful singer from my time i guess
n if i m not wrong she's a japanese juz listen to the song
juz relax ..... n listen wont take alot of ur time .....

phase of the day from me to someone juz the other day
"Be what u wan to be , and not what other's wans u to be "

306 days which make 10months & 1day

HEILUVBAI4

2008-09-13T18:57:00.000-07:00

Started bloggin due to wat i oso cant rmb liao
n to come to think of it ......
i juz wan a place to vent watever i feel like saying ,
but wouldnt it be like seeking for attention .....
tts not wat i wan , seriously i oso dunno wat i wan too .

bothered by alot of things n not knowing wat to do about it .
sad isnt it .... sad yet unwanted by many ....
its still there waiting for the chance to get on us ....

seems like its there to stay .......................

okok getting abit emo there , lets get off tt issue .....
well lets see wat happened recently .....

@WORK - been trying to wake up on time to work ,
set new rule to me n my staffs .......
-NO I/C NO COM
-IF NO I/C , $10 FOR OUTING FUND END OF THE MONTH
GO MAKAN
-LATE FOR AN HOUR PAY THE PERSON BEFORE TT
HOUR'S PAY ON THE SPOT
hope it will work out fine , got 2 new staffs
-Eugene aka Alien
-Alfred aka Ah blur
for Alien , i noe for quite some time since i was like 15 of age
n tts like 10 year liao .... haha
for Alfred , i find him a beri cheerful person , easy to get along ...
n his quite young , younger den Jonathan .... hope noone picks on him ....
Weiting went into NS on the 11th of this month
He was the greatest help anyone could ever have ......
all the best to him in the ARMY.....

@PLAY - CABAL not realli playing much of it nowadays ,
AUDITION ever worst , lost everything , DOTA , as noob as always ,
riding seems like a transport from home to work recently .....
juz the other nite tried to jump , but juz to find out i kinda sux now
realli sad about it ....... haiz wat to do .......
Been playing alot of Majong wif Charwin , Momi n Kai
quite relaxing haha .......

@MONEY - haven invest in the TOTO n 4D thinging yet LOL

@FRENS - not making new frens , but like making more Foes
Andrew got his bike liao realli cool looking , but juz wan him to ride safely

@MIND - dunno wats gonna happened next , the more i think
the more worst i get sometimes , so maybe juz take it a step at a time ...

@LOVE - its was a hard month for both me n piggy chong ,
told her a lie which had no intension of hating her , ended up in a
big mess , but it over for now , trying real hard to built back the trust
level again , n dunno y after tt issue i been thinking too much at times ,
realli needt o stop flying all over the place .....
Baby"s birthday is near-ing , realli dun wat to get for her ....
GUYS GIVE ME SOME IDEAS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP !!!!!!!!!!!!!

291 days sourness , sweetness , bitterness n hotness

HEILUVBAI4

2008-08-12T21:41:00.000-07:00

MONEY NO ENOUGH 2

realli hats off to JACK NEO , he can realli direct lol ....
tokin about how money can turn a person into
u can be rich n if u try to be funny wif money ...
u will end up wif nothing ..... its realli singaporean
worth the watch , n at the end of it ......
realli had me thinking alot ..........

yesterday was a pretty cold day ..... rained in the day
strong wind in the night ......
woke up met up wif my mum , went to the temple ,
den to visit my dad ..... its hurts to look at his pic ....
lookin at the year he died , the month n the date ....
n its was den tt i rmb y i hate my birthday n
y i nv like birthdays n saying birthday is nothing special to me
my birthday is 28/05/1983 , my dad deathday 28/07/1989
i onli had my dad for 6years n 2 month flat ......
wat the hell is this ..... this realli sux .........
n the worst part is yet to come ......
when we r about to go off ......
watching my mom touch my dad's pic ......
its realli hurts me more ...... my dad is placed at Q6-34
den my mum was looking at the spot beside my dad's
Q6-35 den my mind was like wtf ......
den she said there alot of empty spots ,
tts where my mind went nuts ................

den meet up my small piggy at bedok .......
rain again ....... den went for a late lunch at 211
den on to the movies .......
watching until a part where MARK LEE 's wife
was taken away by the police ..... n there was a song
a hokkien song (its on my blog too enjoy it , realli meaningful)
was BEN sang when he was back singapore ........
den tts i realli cant hold back was when their mum was kicked
here n there ...... i kinda tot of my mum ....
n i realli started to cry ..... to think wat she's done for me .....
n wat had i done for her ...... i realli feel like shit .......

plans for now .... settle my things at this job now ...
change a job , settle down wif her .... bring my mum wif me
give her a better life ...... my mum gave more den half her lifetime
to me .... its realli time for me to do something in return for her

den more to my worries , my small piggy kana hives rashes .....
pain me to see her itching all over ...... bring her to get some cream
for the rashes , hope it goes away fast ......
realli love her alot .... i oso dunno y .....juz a simple mindset
juz a simple word "i love her " its might juz be a word to u ....
but for me , its my everything .....

259 days . n planning our lifes ahead ......

HEILUVBAI4

2008-08-05T19:53:00.000-07:00

hey hey , ok fine i blogging now , kana complain sia
say my blog dead la , i lazy la , i this n that la ..... LOL
realli lazy to blog ......

so wat should i utter rubbish about ???? let me see ~~~~~
okok first thing's first .....

@work , things seems to get worse .....
Weijie is no longer work wif me ....
n now wif the start of AUG , n soon the end will oso come in no time
the best help (WeiTing) tt anyone could ever hav is gonna
leave from my wing to serve his NS in SEP
1 big headache , next is Cheng yan ,
he oso voiced out saying he will oso be leaving
which some how i think i understand why oso
coz he not realli earning much here .....
so i think its a good thing for him t o depart ....
n so wif that comes headache number 2
coz he oso a great help from time to time ....
n coming to think of who's left .....
Jonathan , Jim n me
Jim already told me once i can find a replacement for him ,
he will den oso leave n i believe soon to follow will be
Jonathan ....... so realli dunno wat to do oso .....
my passion towards my work is starting to die off
for some reasons oso , juz wanna let the rest leave first
b4 me do so too , i kinda noe wat i wan n where to aim liao ....

@Play ...... the guild blog has new blood in the line ,
admin work should be easiler for now ,
arranging the state of the blog at this point of time ....
n for some reasons Jim seems to be very stress n upset
about something will try to find out ......
the things he posted on his blog ..... made me come to think of something
Noone is realli helping him out that much .....
he's been holding on to everything alone for so long till now .....
i think he needs a rest too ......
okok enough of worries , here's a good news i realli happy to
share wif who ever reads my blog
-XR- HAS ONCE AGAIN TOP AUDITIONSEA !!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for all the hardwork put in , namely :
-XR-SpArKs aka Jim tan
-XR-xiaoKueh aka Ting Yi
-XR-BuiBuix33 aka alvin aka xiao pang
DO VISIT US AT Http://WWW.XR-Auditionsea.blogspot.com
to share our joy in this year of 2008 ...............

@Bike ....... i haven touch trials like for more den 3 months
i m juz rotting at work ..... realli hope that i get it back up ...
give new life to all 3 bikes ...... might need abit of help from
Charwin who had always been ard for me .....
Thank you so much for ur years of understanding .......

@Money ...... not earning alot oso , realli worried .....
maybe i resort to buy TOTO or 4D anytime soon
wanting a bit of hope , juz a bit to be better off den now

@Love ..... nv plan for this in my life , i ready to settle down
but its about time i did so , been abit hot temper lately
dunno y oso , worried she will leave me of my temper ....
juz hope things will turn out fine ..... plans for future ....
1st of all change a job
2nd save up
3rd look for a house to call my own
4th do abit of a changes in terms of my temper
5th try to provide her wif wat i can
the list juz keep goin on n on .....
i wont wan to take that step too ..... lol
but realli wish to settle down juz wif her ,
n came to noe it takes two to clap ,
its nv a one man job , realli wanted to juz break down at times
but knowing there's a her i need to look out for
i juz had to stand up no matter wat .....
realli dun understand it myself oso ......
but everything is still good ......

@Mind ...... as for now i realli dunno where to start or wat to do
hope i can clear my mind up n noe wat to do asap .....
which time is running short for me now .......

@News ..... came to noe of a blog ppl give hav a look
its about the love for a true fren to another even
after she dead, so please visit her @
Http://www.caiweii.blogspot.com
Caiwei please take care ........

252 days of love , fights , hugs n kisses n many more to come

HEILUVBAI4

2008-07-02T18:50:00.000-07:00

Realli lost count of how long i've not been blogging ....
diao diao ..... lol .... well i m back ........
*clap clap* okok i noe i m lame , sue me la ........

where should i start from ? hmmmm ........
hmmmmm ..........
hmmmmmmmmmm .........
here's the problem if u dun blog for too long ,
u cant rmb a shyt u wanna blog ......
damn kinda STM sia ........

@ work , shyt r still happening like some disco tech
kaoz ..... staff giving quite alot of problem , like changing shift
wifout telling me , owning money , letting frenz own money,
not doing ur part .... etc etc the list juz goes on ......
realli need to draw a line between frenz n work ....
SUFFERING AH !!!!!!!!!!
Computers oso start to work up .....
cant start up , cant start game , etc etc ......
come on la , this shop is more den a year old liao la
n yet my boss keep saying anything u need ,
juz tell me ..... den if there's an error on the admin system
he go its the workers fualt la not the system .....
blu blu blu , well enough of that , i couldn't care less anymore ....
i will juz do wat i m being paid for , NO MORE ,NO LESS
FULL STOP !!!!!!!!!!!!!

@ play , cabal , audition, etc ....
cabal not realli playing much ,
same goes for audition , but went to an event held
at suntec on the 28th last month ,
took part but didn't win ......
but afew guild mates won .....
felt happy for them ..... *cheer* yeah yeah ......
as for the blog for my guild -XR-
well its come back to life more or less ......
looking through the C-BOX ,
can c tt some of the more uncontrollable type
r start to hav a more grew up thinking ......
which is great to see ......

here's pics of the event ...........

@MY LIFE , starting to change for wat i should had done
a long time ago , be the bad guy ......
hate me if u may , but there's nothing i can do ......
if u think i being selfish den so be it .....
i juz wanna save my own ass ,
rather den saving someone else's , n yet get nothing
in return , nothing but a whole load of carps .....
fell in love a girl group n a boy group ......
called WONDER GIRLS & BIG BANG
getting back into the K-POP/ROCK & J-POP/ROCK

well here's vids .... ENJOY !!!!!!

Wonder Girls - Tell Me - Wonder Girls

Wonder Girls -

Big Bangs 거짓말 [Lies] MV - Big Bang

Big Bang + Wonder Girls - Tell Me + Lies (05.10.2007 Music Bank Special Stage). - Big Bang + Wonder Girls

@ LOVE ...... Wow .... problematic .......

kinda slack off , oso dunno due to wat ....
maybe juz plain laziness .......
trust lvl is average ..... still rm for improvements
time spend average .............
after looking @ sweety dar dar de blog liao .....
felt beri down , but i think its realli time to do something
to get everything back on track .........
other den those , the rest seems fine at the moment .....
hope all this cloud of mess n misunderstanding
can clean up faster .......

@ FAMILY ........ my eldest brother is back in singapore .....
realli missed him badly ......n finally n long last the family
got togather once again ...... , BEN , AH KHEE , AH TECK ,
ME , TAVERN , SHELDON (oversea) , CHARWIN & MERRIL
went for a KTV @ party world @ Orchard , lots of goin out ,
drinking , late night supper ...... wah haven been so happy
for quite time liao ......

@ HEART ........ clean up all the mess at work ,
spend more time wif my bibi , class 3 , "O" lvl
the list juz goes on n on n on ..... lol

218 days of love , hugs , kisses n many more ......

HEILUVBAI4

2008-05-25T23:07:00.000-07:00

Kaoz when was the last time i blog i oso cant rmb .....

power rite ... LOLZ okok i noe its lame ......
lots of thing happened since the last time i blog ....
n i found out something ...... ever since i stop blogging .....
my temper went up alot .... maybe blogging was a way
i used to channel all my problems , worries , etc etc ....
the list juz goes on n on ....
where should i start off wif first .......
hmmmm .........

1)MY JOB
realli getting sick n tired of it liao .....
under the kind of stress tts making me feel beri beri
DEPRESSED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
y depressed , i m sure u wanna noe .....
like someone told me , i m too soft hearted n i cant do big things .....
which is wats brothering me ........
first of all the staffs tt i have now r all my frenz ......
and wif tt things r harder to voice out to them ....
wheather its work or games ......
making me feel beri leftout most of them ......
so i tried to get myself more involve in watever's goin on ard
trying to be helpful ..... but always ended up backfiring at myself .....
believe it or not , i sat at the stairway of my shop for more den an hour ,
trying to figure out wat or which part went wrong .....
n to make things worst ..... my gf feels leftout when i start toking about my game
but all i wanted was to be a part of the group
which i feel now i nv was in it at all ..... well so be it ......
ITS TIME TO MOVE ON ........

2)MY GF
recently having alot of disagreement wif my bibi
i juz dun wanna tie her down .....
let her go chiong which nv in my life i would let my gf do
but she i would juz let her go ..... dun ask me y ...
i myself oso dunno y ...... she likes to walk out on me .....
wah i tell u ah the FEELING SUX TO THE CORE !!!!!!!!
always being drived up the wall yet i dun hav the heart to
scold her ..... theres onli 2 reasons i can think of
1)i m too stupid to understand her
2) she's juz too hard to understand
which is it i oso dunno n i oso dun wan to noe .....
it will make thing worst .......
28th may is my birthday , 29th may is our 6th months
juz dun wan anything unhappy to happened on the both days
realli praying hard .........

3)MY BIKE
WAH !!!!!!!!!!! its been like donkey years since i last rode my bike
n realli break a sweat ....... doin alot of charges to the bike .....
having the thinking tt my days for ridin are numbered ......
better make best out of the time i have ........

here wats on my mind

thats about it ...... hope i can get it done fast .....
n i oso need brake pads ...... headache ....... hais .........

180 days wif lots of hugs n kisses

HEILUVBAI4

2008-05-06T19:14:00.000-07:00

NOT IN THE MOOD TO POST !!!!!!!!!!!
DUN ASK WHY , I OSO DUNNO ......
SO DUN ASK ....... HAIZ ......

160days le almost 6 months liao ^^

HEILUVBAI4

2008-04-12T12:28:00.000-07:00

recently realli alot of things happened ......
dunno where to start from oso .....
its like everything in a big big mess.......
1st is work ..... got a promotion tt i dun wan .....
yes X GAMING is under my care now ....
realli dunno wat will be the outcome of everything ......
DEREK giving alot of pressure which noone seems to noe
maybe becoz i nv say ..... my wrong ......
sales faction , staff behavior , banking , maintaining coms ....
alot of crap la ..... realli wanna blow up liao .....
still trying to cope wif it ..... now ber shag liao ,
haven been slpin much .......
good help are realli hard to find nowadays .......

2nd is my bike , yes its done .......
but wif the 1st problem on hand i hardly have the time to ride
onli to ride to work n back home .......
tot my bike will be perfect but still got problem ........
gan tu lan ........ anyway this is not realli a big issue anyway ....
still can live wif it ........

3rd is myself , haven been feeling beri well recently ,
maybe due to work lack of slp , lack of FOOD .... LOL
realli something wrong wif me liao .....
i can feel it ......... haiz .......

4th is tt my AUDITION LIKE FUCK LIAO
fingers starting to become retarded liao ......
dunno wanna train back anot ..........

5th is this new game call CABAL
started off well , tot i cant make it in this game ....
but i realize i sux in the game ......
frens tt start later den me r all high in rank n skill den me
n wat m i doing ..... i feel lost ........
i cant seem to rmb wat i wanted .......
who was i to be ................
WAT M I ??? WHO M I ???????
REALIZE I SUX IN ALOT OF THINGS !!!!!!!!!!!

6th n the most important thing to me ........
CHONG FRAN ...... my gf .......
due the 1st n 3rd problem i ve been roaring up
alot nowadays ........ i noe she putting up alot to my temper .....
i dunno y i m so worried about her .....
more than anyone tt had been into my life ......
i realli hate her .... hate her for making me love her so much ......
she n her mum not in good terms , maybe oso becoz of me ....
coz always run out in the mid of the night to see me ......
stay out late to acc me , realli feel damn bad ......
n yet when she 's in need of a shoulder to cry on
i m not there , n to make things worst i m the one who always
make her tear .......maybe something i juz asking too much from her
which i nv realize ...... maybe i m the cause of her pain , tear .....
maybe i m the seed of all evil to cause her all this pain .....
so many times when she said she hungry .....
how i wish to go get her something to eat to warm her up ....
but i CANT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have to fucking work
work my freaking ass off ....... i wanna care for her .....
i wanna love her ...... but i nv did it ........
so scared of losing her ...... i went through so much to be wif her
i dun wan anything to go wrong .........

136 days hope n wanting a better tml wif u

HEILUVBAI4

2008-03-15T13:26:00.000-07:00

recently realli dunno wat m i thinking or
trying to do ..... like lost in the middle of some place
i nv been to or even wanting to get out of ....
LAZY ???? maybe .....

beri long nv blog liao , start to lose heart in a lot of things liao
not speaking didn't mean i dun care or bother ....
but i think its time for others to start doin something .....
for the group
for themself
for the ppl ard them
PEOPLE ITS TIME TO WAKE UP !!!!!!!

losing heart in wat ??? sometimes i oso wonder myself
work?
frenz?
money?
myself?
like i alwasy say too many questions too little time .....

love life is great , (BIBI thanks for being there)
but there's alot more of disagreement goin on nowadays ....
trust level still seems to be a big issue , still workin hard on it

work is starting to pissed the god damn freaking shit outta me
the shop is like falling apart , staffs having their own problems
n worries , n it comes to work , money is always an issue ....
so i dun realli wanna go into it , computer tt sux r getting worst
the internet connection is like **** , D line , blackout bcoming
a huge set back to sales n the mood of the customers ,
which the boss noe n yet can still come ask why .....

Working like dogs n having our asses worked off ,
not even a call or sms "bedok ppl u guyz did a great job ,
try to keep it up " , come la juz a simple sms or call
can make ppl feel the warmness n work for a better tml
rather den having the thinkin of leaving this shithole ......

n fact it is i DUN WAN TO TAKE OVER THIS PLACE!!!!!!
i cant take the stress level , maybe its not i dun wan
maybe its juz my laziness ba ..... hope its juz tt ......

later in a few hours from now , BIBI will be in taiwan
hope she enjoy herself there , coz i noe tt her school
is a beri big blow to her , realli cant bear for her to be
so upset , realli hurts me juz seeing her like tt ....

a whole week not getting to see her , wat will i do ........

something to cheer myself up , lolz i got my new frame
KAI THANKS FOR THE HELP ........
hope can ride better wif it now .......

ITS TIME TO MOVE ON .........................

108 days n tons of hugs n kisses

HEILUVBAI4

2008-03-04T11:43:00.001-08:00

Haven blog for a very long time ... reason ~~~~ no mood ba ....
i think tts the onli thing i can come to think of ....
sum up wat happened recently ba .....
My Guild still the same not much changed since last time ...
My leg was better but now not due to something yesterday
(dun realli wanna tok about it )
My life still the same SUX !!!!!
My money runnin very low !!!!!
not getting much sleep nowadays ....
trying to rediscover myself again ....
coz ppl around me starting to feel tt i m getting lazy ,
but the reason behide is not i dun wanna perform .
its i dun wan to be promote up to IN CHARGE
coz SHENG will be leaving at the end of this month
which i noe all along , coz he keep pushing things to me ...
realli hate it , den my studies need to delay again ....
fainted ..... haven been riding alot nowadays ...
n a very disturbing news from CHARWIN ....
he say he's having no mood for riding liao ...
realli sad to hear tt n hard for me to accept it ....
but i still respect his wish ....

i m realli very sick n tried to see alot of things which
i dun wanna see happen but in the end happening ....
my guild event wasn't a good one resulting to me
not making another more in future tts one thing for sure ...
all the hard work made not seen by ppl realli getting me down
down like 10 feet down under .... there's oso ppl tts having a eye sore
seeing us havin a event , freaking sore losers get a life !!!!!

as for me n BIBI recently having alot of fights dunno y oso
hope it will end , n wif so much thing happening ard her
which i m so unable to help out realli making me feel so
sick n angry about myself , y is it always like this
when she in need i not there , when things happened
i not there to stop it , when she 's having trouble i cant see
i cant help , i cant do anything , i cant do no shit man ....
I FEEL SO USELESS MAYBE I M REALLI USELESS !!!!!

come to think of it .... i tot most of my stress would go away
after all the event , things , etc etc there's like even more now ....

3 MORE DAYS TO 100

97 days n more oinking day ahead

HEILUVBAI4

2008-02-20T11:51:00.000-08:00

recently nothing much to blog about oso ,
haiz , last week wasn't a beri good week for me ...
reason being ?????
I BROKE MY LEFT LEG AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this sux ... realli .... big time .....
i even tot i could join the MARCH COMP ....
i think i can forget about it liao .....
sometimes i wonder y me !!!!!!
y my leg ? y must this happened when i m so in to it ?
realli sian n sadded , n i noe it will not heal ,
but i juz wanna ride , my dream was to hav my own bike shop ,
ride wif my kids when i get old , hope my kids in future ,
wont avoid me coz i old n like i dun understand them ...
ya , i noe i m thinking abit to far ,
but no harm to think further , at least there's a goal in my life ...

the pain feels like the first time i broke my leg .....
scared n in pain , realli dunno wat to do ....
I WAS LOST !!!!!! REALLI LOST .......
n tt nite , we all went to BIRD de chalet at DOWNTOWN EAST
we got there quite late , n ended up chatting the whole nite outside
the chalet , den went back in the day n changed up n back to the
chalet ...... wanted to sleep at first but dunno y all of us was
wide awake for some reason .... den WEI JIE n ME fell asleep

in the afternoon , we woke up n everyone almost there ....
food for the BBQ was ready , the fire was up ....
JOEY n DA WEI JIE help out on the food ....
n in the chalet ... WOW realli havoc ....
we shifted the beds to aside to create a DANCE FLOOR
n AH BOY went nuts , showing all his moves ....
everyone went nuts after seeing him dance ...
den i was waiting for my BIBI to come ....

BIBI had things to do so came abit late ....
den when she reached i fetch at the ticketing area ...
made our way back to the chalet , while some went to the beach ,
some stayed at the chalet , some help out on cookin n
some chatting on the stone chair outside the chalet ...
the evening was great , den its time for the birthday boy
to cut the cake .... everyone was waiting to get their hands on him ...
water , chases , fun n joy went underway .....

after tt the cake was cutted n everyone enjoy it ,
den we went to the acrade to ease off the nite ,
at tt point of time wasn't able to walk realli well
lucky BIBI was there to help me out ,
but den we got into a small fight n cold war session ....
n she needed to go back , n so we went off ...
ended up having the fight outside the chalet ...
started to cool off , had a talk over the issue ,
got each other's understanding n we made our way home ....

BIBI wasn't in a good mood this few days ...
reason being ??? her mum giving pressure n saying things
tt realli upsets BIBI , i noe she is trying hard to change ...
realli hurt to see her like tt n i cant be of any help ...
n above tt making her worried about my leg ...
haiz realli hope she can bear through it all ....
(BIBI i m always here for you de)

Work isn't realli working out well too ....
my boss is asking for a event asap ....
my brain is drying up .... lots of things to plan
having a meeting wif my guild position holders
this friday , hope everything works out well ...

THERE'S JUZ SO MANY QUESTION YET SO LITTLE ANSWERS !!!!

85 days n counting , hugs , kisses , juz cant get enough of it

HEILUVBAI4

THIS IS CRAZY !!!!!! OVERKILL !!!!!!!

2008-02-14T10:36:00.000-08:00

After CNY .... 14th of feb .... VALENTINE'S DAY .....
a day which most couple r waiting all year long ....
well i had mine yesterday too ....
something which for so long i dun n nv plan anything for ...
13 feb morning counting money to bank in ....
haiz .... seems like AH SHENG is handing over everything
to me , like i cant do anything but juz accept it .....
lots of things in my mind rite now ....

FEB:
-DOWNPAYMENT FOR MY FRAME
-SICKNESS
-BIBI DE STUDIES
-WELL BEING OF GUILD

MARCH :
-AUDITION EVENT @ XG
-CHALET FOR XR
-BIKE TRIAL COMPETITION
-WAYS TO HELP BOOST UP SALES

APRIL:
-SCHOOL ENROLLMENT
-GUILD BUILD

realli in a mess now , sales not doin well at shop ....
boss keep calling n ask why this why that .....
hope things will work out ........
few of my worried on hand now .... realli dunno wat to do .....

BIBI haven been realli feeling well this past few days ....
realli worried , she cant realli eat ... hurts me so juz to c her like this ...
hope she gets well soon ......

met up wif BIBI after a short nap at home ....
she was playing AUDITION at my workplace while i m at home ....
den came down to meet her , den bump into MUM(-XR-DAIDAI)
she was meeting the rest for a show at PRINCESS....
den JASON (-XR-AOI) came after his hair cut ...
which looked damn weird somehow ..... LOLS
den i n BIBI went to get her stuffs den
had my dinner at 211 .... yes chicken rice ....
not having too much of this nowadays ......
den sent BIBI home asking her to make herself free at ard 12midnite ...
reason being ??? VALENTINE'S DAY of coz .....
planned out something in all my 25 years for my valentine
went through alot of trouble to get it done rite ....
get the cake since afternoon before meeting BIBI for dinner
earlier on , den went back to parkway to collect the cake ,
quite a rush coz the shop closes at 9.45......
den went back to my workplace , played AUDITION for awhile ...
left shop n went home to get something props for the thing i plan
den ask BIBI to come down at 11.55 ....
reach the playground at 11.48 , set up most of the candles ,
but the stupid wind super strong tt nite ....
finally got it all done , called her , ask her to come over ...
n the smile tt went on her face was PRICELESS !!!!!!

wished her HAPPY VALENTINE DAY , she blew out the candle
den we cut the cake which i oso dunno watever the hell for ...
den we ate the cake wif spoon of coz which i took out from my house ...
den took some pics n save some of the cake for BIBI de MUMMY...
dunno y i would go through all this juz c her happy ....
den she cried n so did i , realli love her alot ....
den i went back to shop to get my things done .....

den went home took a nap den came back to shop again ....
den stayed until AH SHENG came , den did my banking
den meet up wif BIBI after her school at bedok ...
den went to my place , i got changed den went to tampines
for lunch , we had AJISEN RAMEN..... haha
got pics too , realli nv tot i would take so much pics .... LOLS
den we went ard for awhile den get a soft board ...
something we planned some time ago ....
den made our way back to bedok ....
i think both of us were tired n fell asleep in the bus ....
woke up at the stop nearby the SKATE PARK
slacked awhile den AH KAI & CO came ....
chat awhile den back to my shop , checked some stuff
den sent BIBI home .... den dunno y i so tulan .....
DEAR SORRY , den came back to bedok n to shop
n blogged n AUDITION

78 days would u be my valentine for many years to come ???

HEILUVBAI4

2008-02-10T13:08:00.000-08:00

Haven been blogging since 5th of feb ....
Eve of CNY sleepin the 1st half of the
day ,woke up at ard 8 in the nite ....
had my OWN reunion dinner alone ....
but no bad la , still got MUM's COOKING
which is always a great treat somehow ....
come to think about it , its been quite awhile since i last ate
my mum's cookings ......
den meet up wif BIBI after dinner ....
after tt cant realli rmb wat happened ....

1st day of CNY , need to work ... haiz .....
den finish up work at ard 5 pm
planned to go BIBI house to visit her parent de
but her mummy was in china , so called off
thinking of visiting them when she comes back
den called up everyone
for the gathering at BEN 's house to visit his parents
since he's unable to join this CNY realli miss him alot ....
first time i planning something for the FAMILY
7 of us used to be 9

1.BEN
2.Ah Khee
3.Ah Teck
4.ME
5.Sheldon
6.Tavern
7.Charwin

sms them to meet up at blk 55 prata shop
where we used to gather at .... LOLS
some of us came quite late ... LOLS
there was
Ah Khee , Ah Teck , Me , Fran , Charwin ,
Momi , Merril , Tavern & Gf
total of 9 of us , BEN's parent seem very happy to c us
coz its like we oso very long nv go visit them ....

BIBI look very bright tt nite , n she wasn't realli happy
coz we would suppose to go chiong
which i haven been doin for god noes how long lo ....
den i oso got fault , coz i told her will go wif her ...
but ended up at BEN's place ....
(BIBI sorry will make it up to u de)
after the gathering , Charwin , Momi , BIBI n Me
we went for supper near BIBI de house there
both me n Momi wasn't feel quite well
den after supper Charwin help send BIBI house den me

2nd day of CNY , realli was sick .... sian lo
den BIBI came over to look after me ....
den we both fell asleep until at night den went for dinner at bedok
den went to buy ticket for movie
the JACK NEO film staring FANN WONG & MARK LEE
but before tt we went to my work place for AUDITION
den when it was about time we found out tt
we r not the onli ones tt were goin for the show

jim
max
tiger
bird
daphine
pillow
hearts
and afew more

were oso goin too , den we went up together
den the show was great , realli funny , had a good laugh ....
den walked BIBI home .....
telling her things i nv told anyone ....
i , myself oso dun believe i would tell her ....
but still i did , den we reach her block ....
n we set down n had a very long talk ....
got to noe each other even more ....
den send her to the lift , kiss her good nite too
den made my way home , den talk awhile over the phone
den fell asleep not long after tt ....

3rd day of CNY , BIBI must be tired .... woke up quite late ...
den planned to meet up early , but she had guests at home ...
den we met up at ard 2 plus , den went to SIMEI ,
den took a cab to PASIR RIS DOWNTOWN EAST ,
had lunch there den went to PASIR RIS PARK for a stroll
which is something i would nv do ....
had alot of 1st time wif BIBI .....
den we went on to WHITE SANDS walked ard
den made our way back to BEDOK
coz i needed to work at 9 .....
den had dinner at BEDOK oso ....
den started work n BIBI went to the airport
to pick her mummy up from CHINA .....

4th day of CNY , finish work too tired liao
fall asleep at my workplace den woke up at ard 2 plus
got my lunch settle den went home to rest abit more ...
den woke up n got ready to face my greatest fear (joking onli)
MEET YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S PARENTS !!!!!!!!!
bathed , changed den took a cab to BIBI 's place
went to her house , wished her parent happy new year ...
den chat wif her mummy for almost 2 hours or so ....
den we went back to my place ....
den BIBI was sick , i think i passed it to her de ....
BIBI de mood changed after her mummy called ....
den she cried tellin most of her fears ....
which some of her fears was oso mine ....
had a small talk den called it a day n send her home ...
den came to my workplace to game n blog ....

74 days of wonderful moments wif my BIBI

HEILUVBAI4

2008-02-05T08:42:00.000-08:00

time realli pass wifout even being notices .... its been a week since i last blogged
i dunno even noe where to start from ... headache LOLZ
oh well ... FEBRUARY liao .... realli fast dun u think so ...
on the 1st got my pay in advance den went home slp ...
den work at nite .... den after work finally got to shop for mu CNY things
first went to BIBI de house to help her pack her room ,
coz she got project to rush , den found a dairy of hers ...
wif onli 3 pages .... LOLZ .... n there was something about me !!!!
Faint ..... u all wanna noe wat she wrote .... LOLZ ... come on get real .....
its her dairy ... its souly hers ... cant say .... sorry i noe i being lame ...
but got to hear from her , i m the 1st to read it ...
realli happy to hear tt from her .... she always puts the smile on my face ...
den her daddy came back from work ... n so we got everything done ...
n we were ready to leave for shopping ... YEAH !!!!!
came down , beri quickly we got a cab , but tt stupid driver ...
took a longer way tt jam almost half of the whole trip to FAR EAST ....
got abit tulan ... almost $20 sia .... wu siao bo !!!!
den alighted the cab , bum into JOEL n chat for abit den went on in ,
when we went in ... it was damn PACKED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
first we went to look for food , but in the end nv realli got to eat ....
starting to shop for my things .... well wats on my list..... Hmmmm

1.shoes
2.t shirts
3.anything tt catches my eye LOLS

Den bum into another 3 more frens of my ....
after 2-3 hours i found the things i wan but cant make up my mind ....
den we went to somewhere else to shop ...
getting tired coz haven slp since i finish work ...
at least we got a pair of couple T shirts ....
den went over to CINE hope to get something to bite
den CHARWIN called n say they r done ...
den ask to meet at CITY HALL at 10.15
n its like juz 20 mins away .... den we made our way to the station den
i dunno where we were goin n couldn't buy my ticket ...
den call CHARWIN & MOMI again to comform where we r goin ...
n told them BIBI n me haven eat den MOMI ask where we wanna go ...
n BIBI gave the idea to eat at a shop nearby her place ...
n so we went CITY HALL met up wif them n went to the shop ...
den we bum into AH HOCK who was workin part time for tt shop ...
den after dinner we all went back , n planned to meet up at 11am
the next morning to go town to get our stuffs ....
den BIBI n me went to my workplace to play AUDITION before goin home ...
when i got there .... KHIARIN told me AH BOY haven report for work yet ...
n it was already near 12mn .... called him , sms him ... no replies ....
den i sms him to take over in the morning ....

Sunday ... woke up late for the appointed time ...
den meet at BEDOK mrt station den bum into
AH DIONG , AH DI & AH LIANG who r oso goin to town ...
den not long after we reached ORCHARD , bum into AH PENG ....
he was waiting for MATT , so we waited together ....
now here where the real fun starts , we all went to FAR EAST
MOMI wanted to sell off her extra HP , onli fetch ard $200...
den went ard , couldn't get anything den we across the road
to get my shoes , where CHARWIN get a pair of shoe
n 3 tops ... den went to TAKA for awhile den rush back
to work to take over from KHIAIRN ....
coz AH BOY nv turn up for his shift ....
reason being , still unknown ...... haiz ....

Tuesday ..... woke up at ard 12noon , coz i need to give out the pay ...
den i looked at my HP , 30 miss calls ... FAINT !!!!!
den bath , chiong down to shop , called DEREK(boss) ...
he den ask me to give out the pay den bank in the rest ....
den when everything was done , BIBI came down from school ....
but before she came , got realli pissed off ...
her ex boss (CAROL) called n ask her to help back at DOUBLE C(PUB)
coz 1 of the old staff cant make it for work ... like wtf lo .....

1.i dun like her workin there
2.studies seems to be more important
3.coz of some MOTHER FUCKING PCB there(iwish i can SKIN him ALIVE)
4.who will let their GF to work in a place like tt !!!!!!

i noe i m being unreasonable , but i believe the 4 reason above ...
is more den eunff to get the msg over to her ...
i not trying to change her , but its for the better ...
would i put someone i love so much in a spot when i noe
its like a trap bla bla bla (u noe wat i noe didn't u ?)

KAOZ i m like blogging endlessly sia ... FAINT !!!!
can go write story books liao , maybe can become bestseller ....
LOLS ... come on man who m i kidding .......

den mummy call me suddenly asking me to go get PRAWNS ...
so we went to SHENG SONG n got some , went home ....
den had some time of our own , talk things out ....
which i nv do before wif my EX GFs ....
its realli nice to had her ard .... reason ???
i oso dunno how to explain ... juz a kind of feeling ...
realli hard to put it into words ....
den we went for dinner n she went back to do her things ...
den dunno y got abit worried n angry coz cant seem to find her ....
den dunno how come she came to my shop in a beri short time ....
den dunno y my mind was running wild in tots ...
alot of dunno n ? all over my head .... WATS WRONG WIF ME !!!!
scare she hungry went down to get her mac , but after the set
i buy , she went to get another set ....
she realli is a good eater , maybe better den me .... LOLS

watever it is , we will learn to LOVE , RESPECT , TRUST , HELP , ENDURE
& etc etc etc together no matter wat , no matter wat !!!!!

69 days n loving her more n more ...

ps: sorry for being selfish n unreasonable at sometimes ,
juz dun wan anything to happened to u

HEILUVBAI4

2008-01-29T13:34:00.000-08:00

Sian , dunno wat to blog oso ... so here wat happened early on today ...
woke my BIBI up for school , i was still playing AUDITION ...
n AHBOY was on shift ... SHENG came ... still having ppl owning money ...
den handing over took quite so time ... n LELE was here too ...
Having to go sleep ,waited for AHBOY ...
after AHBOY finish he went home to change n AHDI n LELE
wanted to take MC for the day ...
so ME , AH DI , LELE & NICK went to eat at the same place ...
my favor chicken rice stall again , NICK went to get his jeans altered
saying of jeans , i haven alter mine .... faint .... plain laziness ....
after breakfast cum lunch , we went to the polyclinic ...
where we bum into AH DIONG , he was having SORE EYES
can't even get his eyes to open wide ... got 3days of MC ...
n AH DI caem up wif a stupid idea asking AH DIONG
to act as him to get MC .... LOLS ....
LELE oso got her MC (2days) den ANDREW came too ...
the plan went well ... oso got MC (2days)
den WEITING called n ask where were we n he came over too ...
n when everythings done ... we went back to my workplace ...
AHBOY , BENDALENE (-XR-Saddist) & JOEY(-XR-MRinsane)
were already here .... wif the place to packed ... i went home ....
den finally got the mood to sleep thanks to the rain ...
sms my BIBI to be careful coz its rainin ....
n soon enough i fell asleep ... den BIBI called me when she end school ...
n she came over to my place to see if i was ok ....
n was still sleeping , n i think she was tried too ....
n fell asleep beside me , realli lazy to go work ...
call n told KHAIRIN i would be late for work ...
finally woke up wif my head spinning .... bath ....
slowly made my way to work wif BIBI ....
den at my workplace we parted ... she was heading for home ...
she needed to send her assignment to her classmate in her group ...
but her lappy wasn't realli in her favor ...
but she was realli smart to save another copy of her assignment ....
den i was having a headache of my own ....
my Guild's member list , BLOG n FORUM ....
can't think wif a empty tummy , went to MAC n got a McSpicy Meal
while on the phone wif my BIBI .... she was hungry too ...
coz i didn't bring her for dinner (Sorry BIBI)
den got into some misunderstanding but soon got rid of it ...
kinda shouted at BIBI (feel realli bad about it)
we both said sorry to each other ... n she was kinda down ...
still trying to find out wat happened ...
realli wanna noe ... but she fell asleep ....
Sigh ... finally everything done ... the gang went back early ...
but sales was bad .... its 6 in the morning ... onli 8 customers ...
I'M SO DEAD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haiz .... realli getting restless nowadays realli can't bring myself up
to do anything rite .... i m tired , very tired , realli realli tired ....
i told BIBI , i needed a holiday juz to put myself at ease ....
will that day day come , hmmmm .... i wonder ????

2month & 1 day (62days) loving my fishball so much ....

HEILUVBAI4

2008-01-28T14:41:00.000-08:00

Didn't realli feel like blogging this few days ... reason being ... i oso dunno y too ...
dunno y havin this feelin tt i will lose my BIBI ... so scared ...
scare to dun feel the love she need ,
scare i can't give her wat she need ,
scare i can't be there for her ,
scare i do things she dun like ,
scare i lose my temper on her again ,
scare i over feed her ,
scare she dun like my life style ,
scare she dun like my Brothers ,
scare her mother disapprove me being wif her ,
scare i will put her in a spot when its comes to my n her mum ,
scare not enough sleep ,
scare she can't wake up ,
scare she can't cope wif her schoolwork ,
scare she will quit school ,
scare of alot of things ...
Haiz , juz feel hopeless sometimes dunno y oso ...
maybe tts its to be ba ... hope all this scary scary things can be overcome ...
she's be there for me when i needed her ... dunno can i do the same for her ...
realli dun wan to lose her , juz happen tt she mean alot to me ...
its juz awhile onli since we finally got together , but it feels like forever...
n tts wat i wish for ...
BIBI "if there's anything i say or do to make u upset , I'M SORRY .... "

Wif CNYard the corner , still alot of thing haven do ... AIYO !!!!!
Hair cut .... check! (UGLY LO !!!!!)
Jean .......... check! (haven alter)
Shoes ........ check!
Tops .......... Error! (haven buy ah !!!!)
still got but i cant remember liao ... STM suddenly kick in ...

Echo lite for $350 wifout fork ... haiz lan lan take lo ....
i gave SAM my word liao .... hope i can ride better for the frame ...
March comp still thinking should i join anot ...

finish work yesterday morning , hand over as usual ...
went shopping for thing in the shop wif the company of
JIM(-XR-SpArKs) & AH HUA(-XR-WangZii)
den along wif breakfast cum lunch all in one ...
at where ??? where else ??? 211 lo ...
my favor chicken rice stall .... like wat JIM said
"dunno y we dun get sick of the chicken rice , its been so many years liao"
HAHA , its like a drug lo .... u will juz go back for more n more ....
sound scary rite ... but realli u should try ....
n was suppose to meet up wif FANG MING(-XR-DuSt)
& JOANTHAN(-XR-JoNjOn) n go BUGIS to buy clothes
den later meet CHARWIN & KAI for a ride ...
got home den lay down on bed den ............
ZZZZzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzz
i fell asleep ..... siao liao .... GG liao lo ....
woke up at 10 plus in the night ... call BIBI(she must be worried sick)
den meet her for supper , den walked her home ...
had a chat wif me her under her block ......
den back to bedok , met up wif the rest of the gang ,
got to watch my animes , den blog n waiting to wake my BIBI up at 7am
den later maybe goin to BUGIS wif AH HUA , LARRY , etc etc ...

GATHERING on last sunday i tried to take my hands off ...
wondering will there be ppl who will take it up n do it ...
n yes there were , JIM & CHERYL (-XR-DAIDAIx3)
went n got the cake n the thing needed for the birthday party ...
n its seem everyone got wat the wan or need ,
n i got the sleep i long needed ... LOLS ...

TAGGY on the blog removed ... wasn't realli happy about it ...
but had to put it aside for the time being ... there more important
things to be done ...

61 days (2 months since 29-11-07)i love u

HEILUVBAI4

2008-01-26T13:47:00.000-08:00

Yesterday nothing much happened until ard 9 plus , when BIBI finish her school ...
n came back to meet me , CHARWIN & MOMI for dinner at 85 market ...
went to AH DIONG's stall but he wasn't there , so our guess is he went to ZOUK ...
den we start making fun of the name ZOUK ... den after dinner dunno where to go ...
CHARWIN gave the idea of rounding in the car ard singapore , n we did ...
first went to CHARWIN 's house to get the car , den off we went ...
first e went to the route (99turns) den up KENT RIGDE PARK (i think spell wrong)
LOLS its was a great view up there .... slack awhile den went off to
WEST COAST PARK ... CHARWIN seem to be dying to go there ....
which he went wif MATT once n stayed there for 4HOURS juz playing there ....
n so we reached WEST COAST PARK , n off for loads of fun ....
feel like we got younger somehow .... played almost everything we came across ...
n not long after tt we were all beat .... LOLS den went a jetty look alike spot ...
the wind was great , the night was wonderfully .... den we went to mac for supper ...
n when we finish our food , made our way to the car den something reminded me
of my childhood living in WEST COAST area before my father pass away ...
n come to think of it ... its been 20 long years since i last stepped foot there ...
ask CHARWIN for a favor to bring me to my old house which i long to visit ...
(brother thankz again) climenti west street 2 block 724 #05-188
i can still remember it like it was juz yesterday onli ... ask CHARWIN to wait
n i went upstair wif BIBI , alot alot of things came back to me ...
first was the letter box where my dad set me when i got bitten by a dog ,
den the view of the carpark from upstair which i always waited for
my dad to come home ... realli feelin like crying , but wat good can it do ...
its been 20 years already ... 20 long years ... my brother should 20 this year ...
so many so many things came back to my mind .......
my uncle said i was lucky tt my mother choose me over my brother ...
until now i still dun understand ... i realli dun ... all my question , worries
for some many year still not having an answer to ...
if i ask my mum , its gonna be hard for her as its for me ....
juz prey tt my brother is better off den wat his elder brother is now ...
so much thing bottle up for over 20 years ....haiz ....
well i guess this is life ... i even called my mother to comfirm tt i m was
at the rite places ... wif a shock tone my mum said YES tts the place ...
came down n got into the car ... tears rolled down my face ...
i oso dunno y ... den tried to cool down abit .. den BIBI asked me
"wats wrong ?" so i started to tell her the story of a family whom father
dead at early age n almost everything i could remember ....
i still wanna thank my mother for not givin up hope on me ...
which i dun hav any at all to start wif .... all the pain n hurt i've given her ...
when will i realli be like the age i m .... i've always been a quitter ...
always thinkin i cant get this done ,cant get that done ...
when will i snap out from it .... i realli wonder ...
den the next place we went was CHARWIN's school ...
which look like a factory .... LOLS
soon everyone got tired ... so called it a day .... which didnt realli end for me
got back to bedok , coz BIBI wanna play AUDITION anyway my hand oso
itchy .... den the rest of the gang was at the usual coffeeshop 204 again ...
had a short chat n went up to my workplace ... which came the real problem
the MAIN ADMIN COM ke siao lo ... faint ... almost called 995/911
the problem came at 5 am den i tried all the way i can think to fix it ...
so i had to call VICTOR .... but he said he was dead tired ...
n so i was left to die alone .... LOL the matter went on even until
SHENG came to take over MONKEY's shift (-XR-AhBoY)
my mind shut down liao cant think rite ...
didnt care ... ask MONKEY n WEITING for breakfast ...
AH DI oso came for breakfast ... had a long chat for like so 2 hours ...
tts some beri long talk ... got house n into bed about 3pm in the afternoon ...
n BIBI went ot school n even get her hair done .... SHE LOOKED GREAT !!!
LOLS ... den i was almost late for work ... n i found out alot of thing ...
my stock went wrong but my shift ... still trying to find out ...
BIBI came down n got me dinner n supper den sent to take a cab ...
n she reached home soon after , n went to bed n i came back to work ...
still abit tu lan cant watch my ANIME on CRUNCHYROLL .... kaoz ...

59 days n loving her more n more ....

HEILUVBAI4

2008-01-24T13:40:00.000-08:00

Yesterday didnt blog , coz went riding wif CHARWIN .... met him ard 6 plus at bedok ...

didnt realli have the form to ride tt day , dunno y too ...

had dinner at my favor chicken ride stall again .... LOLS

n on wif riding ....Sweet CHARWIN needed to get some cream for MOMI

we first went to a clinic in chai chee for the cream ...

den we went ard the area , n got stopped by a guy

i think his name was JOKIO or something ....

coz he was into BIKETRIALS .... which had not been riding for quite sometime ...

after a short chat we exchanged number as he was stayin in SINGAPORE

n wans to noe more about the sport in SINGAPORE ....

n even wanted our help to find a new bike .... LOLS COOL!!!!!

den at the same time KAI was on his way to get his frame ....

which i tot he went to got it the other day , but his bank account wasn't updated

den after a few hours of ride i could SIDE HOP to a high which i had nv done before ...

den came CHARWIN to top me off wif a APUI HOP the same height i hopped up ...

realli he's good , better den ever ... ELITE is the class he wants to reach in 2008

he wans to make a mark for himself in the sport he shown so much passion on ...

but after we went to another area he MISS QUE n hit his knee ....

n its painful tts all i can tell u (kana alot of times liao "ME")

BRO THANKS FOR EDiTTING THE PICS .....

sit we kinda ended the ride there ... so i sms my BIBI asking her to meet up..

n so she did , n KAI was on the way back to meet us too ....

den we made our way to BEDOK MAC for a rest n waited for them to come ...

n this silly KAI went home first which we already ask him to meet us ....

at BEDOK first coz we ended the ride .... den he rode down wif a fren ...

den later followed by SENG .... BIBI stayed at my workplace for AUDITION ...

den we all went over to KAI 's house downstair to look at the GU FRAME ...

den while fixing SENG 's bike i think we made too much noise ...

the POLICE came .... shit luck ... but these police officers were nice ...

had a chat n they went off n so did we ...

met up wif BIBI at my place den went for dinner cum supper LOLS

den was wanting to send her home but she wanted to go back herself ...

which i noe she didnt mean wat she said ....

so when she got on the cab i sms her tt i m sorry for not sending her ...

den she send something back to me ... which warmed up my heart

asking me wheather i rmb wat i told her , so asked which one .....

(my money is ur money , but ur money is ur money )

"so y do i wanna waste my money when u say tt ur money is my money"

n so i went down to shop wif a smile on my face .....

den stayed until 7 plus in the morning to give her morning call ...

den made my way home to rest .... den woke up n met her for dinner ...

den i went to work .... sales wasn't realli good until now ...

went through our GUILD blog .... found out a few things ....

hais ... still trying to make things right ..... hope more members would help ....

haiz samethings not done , my hair , CNY clothes , money for the cake

etc etc etc .... the list juz goes on ..... haiz .............

HOPE MY GUILD CAN GET THROUGH THIS HARDSHIP ......

57 days n going on .... shoppin wif BIBI later .....

HEILUVBAI4

2008-01-22T15:50:00.000-08:00

Start off the day in a beri lazy way ..... went home after work ....
knocked out cold on bed , i even cant get up the time i set to meet AH KAI & SENG
coz we were goin over to SAM 's place to get AH KAI 's new frame ....
but i can't wake up , they bombed my Hp till almost low batt ....
i still can't wake up .... i think if they realli drop a bomb beside me ....
LOLS i think i oso wont wake up .... juz dunno y so tired ....
finally manage to wake up at 6 plus in the evening ....
got myself washed up , still in a daze .... rode to my workplace ...
to meet my BIBI , when i reached , its like everyone was there ...
got to noe she got a bit piss off wif me , sleeping for so long ....
(BIBI sorry dun mean to make u worry)
den the whole lot went to the usual coffeeshop 204 for dinner ....
which i had noodles n BIBI had rice wif spicy pork ....
den got to noe n meet -XR-Dolphin (Cassandra) in person ...
wif tt all done , there goes work .... work work work ....
toking about work , something veri disturbing happened yesterday ,
when i hand over to WEITING ... My BOSS (DEREK) called ...
coz sales was realli bad , the lowest of this whole month ...
as usual like wat he will always asked
"KP how come sales so bad , how m i gonna report to other share-holders"
come on lo , its not like i wanted it to turn out like tt de lo ...
realli sux thumb die ... tulan until dunno wat to say oso ...
haiz wat to do , no point goin head on wif him ... i dun gain shit ...
den he asked who's workin later in the nite , i told him its gonna be me ...
n there he go again "KP ah , u need to do something ah"
AND AGAIN SALES SUX BIG TIME !!!!!
realli startin to lose heart in this job liao .... realli headache ...
N as for guild matters , still trying to change for the better ...
during work i got so bored tt i watch Heaven Sword and Dragon Sabre ..,
dunno y always had the love for this type of drama shows
Haiz , lots of things not did , hair not cutted , jeans not done yet ,
CNY clothes oso haven buy .... DAMN i'm so dead !!!!!!
But lucky i got someone close to my heart to warm n help me
when i needed someone there .... BIBI thanks for eveything...
56 days n countin hating u for making me love u so much

HEILUVBAI4

2008-01-21T13:34:00.000-08:00

Early in the morning went to a near coffeeshop for breakfast before headin home...

Had my Favor mee , went to 7-11 to buy milk n chips ....

got home took a shower den drop dead on bed until when i cant rmb liao .....

den woke up to the ring of my Hp , Sweety Dar Dar Hp appear on the screen ...

a smile juz went up , full wif sweetness .... she say she finish school reach somewhere

where i cant realli recall , she was heading to my place ......

so like the PIG i m , i fall asleep again ... LOLS ... Not long after she called...

asking me to open up the door .... got out of bed n to the door i went ...

when i saw her ., my eyes went wide .... haha she was wear a dress like top ...

which somehow made her look as if she wasn't wearing any bottom (of coz she was)

N wif her was my lunch .... but i was too tired to hav it , n SOOOO i went back to bed ....

YES ....BACK TO BED AGAIN !!!!! LOLS i got up time from time .

scare she might get piss off for coming all the way to my place ,

n i was sleepin ..... den she drew something which to me looks damn cute lo ....

so i join in too .... den again dun y we went to sleep again ......

got up around 7 plus in the night den we to my workplace drop my staff ...

den went for dinner was kinda piss me off ... when i was Q-ing for my food ...

some BITCH took my chill , spoon , etc etc juz like tt ..... WAH TU LAN ....

den after dinner it was time for me to work liao .... BI BI acc me to work ....

den played AUDITION for awhile coz her lappy havin problem

(poor Dar Dar , We will go get it fixed ..... dun sad ... k ?)

den Dar Dar went back home , den told something ,

which i was quite happy n headache about ..... (do u wanna noe wat it is ????)

(realli wanna noe ????)

(u sure u wanna noe ????)

(comfirm u realli realli wanna noe ????)

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(nah ...... dun tell u ..... LOLS)

Den the nite went on , but Nick (-XR-KINGx3) havin abit of problem ....

Due to stress , under pressure n not being understand by his baobei ...

things took a pretty bad down turn for him , hope he still strong.....

54 days n counting still strong n will get stronger de

HEILUVBAI4

Pic taken on -XR-solo event 20-1-2008

2008-01-20T07:09:00.000-08:00

Wow .... wat a day .... -XR- Event went underway .... its all good ....
But can be better somehow ..... haiz , watever it is at least the msg was out ,
coz some members felt leftout , which i oso dunno y ..... trying to do something about it
first .... woke up at 1 plus by a kiss from my piggy dar dar (pull myself out of bed)
got changed , made our way to my workplace for the event .....
n something pleased me alot , someone came earlier to take the name for the comp ....
den heard tt NICK(-XR-KINGx3) having a hard to wake WEIJIE & ANDREW up LOL
so went JIM (-XR-SpArKs) to the help , but at tt point BIBI n me hungry liao .....
so asked JOEY & MAX wheather they wanna join us for lunch anot .....
without much thinking they said ok n off we went for my fav chicken rice stall at 211 ,
without much time to waste , we had a quick meal n went back to shop for the event ...
try to change my temper asking frenz to help out nicely , which wasn't as hard as i tot ...
not much members took part , juz a few , but thanks to them it still went on ..... hehe
10 persons for normal mode n 7 persons for Beat up , smoothe as it starts same as it ends
Gathered Everyone for a group pic , which as usually takes a long time ...
pic to be updated soon .... n best part of the day is from BIBI sending me a SMS ....
makin me smile n cheered up , wishing me all the best for the event as i was taking parts too
didn't make it to the finals but had my fun ....
gotta feedback from member was might help out alot , n afew small problem came up
but was solve wif the help of our love n frenship haha (sound so girly)
den went for dinner wif CHARWIN & MOMI , went to skatepark n slacked ...
catch up wif some of our riding frenz , den called it a day n i came back to shop n blog ......

53days n counting

HEILUVBAI4

2008-01-19T09:46:00.000-08:00

Slow day .... slept first half of the day , waiting for my small oink oink ...

planned to go over to bibi's fren de shop for BBQ SEAFOOD , but den .....

her fren was sleepin , so we waited for her reply .... 8 plus liao .... fainting LOL

so called it off , first went to my workplace , den off to bedok north 400 plus ...

wanted to go for steamboat , coz heard its newly opened $11.90 for audlts $6 for childs

n there's a westen food stall called "BOTAK JONES" cute name thou ...

but we went off to another place coz i find its funny for juz the two of us to eat steamboat ...

so we walked to 85 market for dinner , couldn't make up my mind of wat i wan ,

so let BIBI do the picking , she went over to AH DIONG (aka lighting bear in chinese)de stall ,

got us a soup n a pot of spicy sliced fish along wif rice , chicken wing n of cos drinks

got into a small misunderstanding wif BIBI , but all was fine after a talk ...

still learning how to control my temper , went off from there wif ah diong back to my workplace

haiz , sian needed to take over ah boy de shift from wei ting (not veru happy at that point)

but soon came to a understanding , told BIBI i made a blog out of BOREDOMNESS ....

give a smile n said "kinda like a ger's blog" (fainted someone call 995 for me ) LOL

52 days and counting , loving her more n more day by day .....

ECHO LITE 08 FRAME

Still thinking wheather should i get it from SAM anot .....

need to change my riding n ride ........

HEILUVBAI4

2008-01-18T14:57:00.000-08:00

dunno wat happened to me , suddenly wanted to start a blog
its like wat my mei ( shuling ) told me once ...
sometime things r easier to write den speak up front ,
true it is , maybe it me who's havin trouble tokin nicely ...
i sometime hurt or piss ppl off , without myself noeing ...
Even Ah boy (monkey) oso told me tt my temper needs to be control ,
N if i dun , things might turn ugly ...
other den tt , havin problem wif my guild (-XR-)
Maybe we r too strong too fast , ppl r havin an eye sore on us ,
Finding way to hit us down hard , n to make things worst ...
FAMILY MEMBER r not helpin much , juz a hand full tts helping ,
which is juz not enuff , n some even wan to left/quit this family ...
but can anyone tell me , how is it tt u can quit a FAMILY ...
things dun seem to be goin as plan ....
getting the mood for riding nowadays , oso dunno y out of a sudden too ...
juz feel great to ride again , even wif my leg like tt ...
coz i noe my bros (charwin , merril , blue , joel) n frens r there for me ...
if i go down on a ride , hopefully can take parts in the march comp ...
its been 51 days since i n her got togther after the long wait ...
everyday juz seem to get better n better , she's a great gf (juz abit lazy),
but not too much of a problem , n to shock me . was she being able to get along
wif CHARWIN TAN ... WOW !!!!! she's the first one .... LOL
like wat charwin said she might juz be the right one for me ...
So i guess my search is over .....

HEILUVBAI4

2008-01-18T13:53:00.001-08:00

This is our first foto together 29-11-07 ^^